It could be my unicorn crazy flu fever talking here, but I have something to say. Or thoughts. Or crazy hallucinations. Whatever you might want to call them.

I filed my taxes yesterday. I'm actually getting a refund this year. I never get a refund and usually owe about $3.00 because that's just how it has always worked out, but hey, this year I am getting one.

But here's the thing:

Why, when there are so many programs in this country that absolutely rely on our TAX DOLLARS to function properly, should I actually get a refund? I drive on the roads. I take public transportation. I use the public library. I walk on our sidewalks and take the dogs to the parks. I would like CONGRESS to actually show up and do the job we've elected them to do, but that requires us to do more than just vote in Presidential elections, that requires real participation and more reforms, so let's just say I understand they have jobs to do and I want them to do their jobs! I actually would appreciate LilSalty getting a GOOD EDUCATION (as well as other children in this country). I want to have public lands to enjoy. I want good and available HEALTHCARE for everyone.

Now, I am not saying we should give handouts to people. I actually believe that we should ALL PARTICIPATE. In other words, if you need a sandwich, come and help me make the sandwich. Don't tell me that you can't help me make a sandwich? Because, I believe that you can help me make the sandwich if you're hungry enough to eat the sandwich. If you need to see a doctor, help me clean the clinic where you're going to see the doctor. Oh, yes, I understand that right now you're very ill, that you need affordable care and medicine and I'm happy to help you get exactly what you need, but I also believe, yes I do, that you have something to contribute to the overall success of your own COMMUNITY. That you can PARTICIPATE in your own care. That you can show up.

Back to my refund. If I were asked, which I was not, I would give it back and remind the government that they're running at a DEFICIT and shouldn't be refunding TAX DOLLARS, but to STOP FUNDING the WAR MACHINE and perhaps spend it on REAL HUMAN BEINGS and their real HUMAN NEEDS. Of course, that is me hallucinating.

There are a whole lot of people in this country just like me. I feel it, I know it. We're trying really hard to participate and to show up and to effect change and to save a planet that needs us to hug it fiercely. It's not going to happen if we don't put our own sparkly boots on the ground, actually show up, as I said, truly participate in our own CARE and FEEDING and start to really talk to one another, hug one another and, well, give each other more than just rhetoric about spare change.

Brothers and sisters, I love you and I want to give you my refund, my heart, and to participate with you. I'll make the sandwiches. I just need you to help me to do it. xo